5 years 6 months 22 days and counting...
Thats the total duration I am in a relationship. Maybe I am a sucker, like those total crazy manic, but I really want to get tied down.
You may say that who needs a guy when girls now can live w/o them and be equally as sucessful and independent. But deep in me, I want to have a place I call my own. Not because that I dont love my mum. But I want to have my own place with the one that you want to live with the rest of my life. Control freak, maybe?
But being together so long but yet it seems like there is no progress into the next stage of our relationship. Is status that important? Maybe? But having status doesnt mean that things wont go sour. Maybe its the moment of joy of confirmation that he do want to spend the rest of his life with me. But who know, one might just get married for the sake of getting married.
Our house is in the process of building. Maybe ready in other 3 years. Then we will be together for 9 years but not married. He said,"so what if we are 10 years in a relationship? It does not mean that we have to get married. We are gona be together for another 50years. Does that make any difference?"
Come to think of it, what is after marriage? No such thing as divorce and get married again. Maybe I should try to enjoy my so call 'single-hood' now.
But everyone around me are getting married. I am jealous.
But I dont what the idea of marriage be one sided. I want him to want it too.
I am tired.

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