Sunday, August 31, 2008

I got to be strong now

I cant believe that its Aug already and in another like 2 weeks or so, it would be over. Why does time pass so fast? Does it got anything to do with age? I don't remember passing my 6 years of primary school life so easily. Every exam period seems forever not over. And the days/years to be in upper primary and not be pushed over seems ages. Hahaha...I guess its partially age.

I miss my ex-employer. I miss all the people there. I surely don't miss the work, the amount of crap that you need to take from the customer. Customers are always right. *bleahz... But at least I know I am surrounded by people that I can trust. People who are not just my colleauges but friends, that till now, they still remembers me. For every outing, they have asked me to join. Even the bosses extend the inviate by personal sms-es.

Sometimes, I wonder if its due to the different work environment and the demographics of the people I work with. My ex-company are youngsters. Even the AVP is like 3 yrs older than me only. (ok I cant imagine that). While here, I am one of the youngest. Others are either in last 20s or married with kids. People here are like 5 to even 15 years at the same company. It seems that everyone is 'nasty' coz they are just fighting for survival and climb the corporate ladder. They are more unwilling to share and really can be very nosey and full of gossip. The best part, they gossip openly and loudly in office. *faint... I just wana do my work, finish and go home. No sharing of personal life, dont what they would use against me.

But sometimes, its just get very unbearable. Imgaine, no 'friends' at work. No one u can trust. You lunch alone. Everyday lunch in. Every hour rushing for daily hourly deadline. I cant breathe coz I cant afford. Time mgmt? No, thats not the concern, coz I know I am dealing with my job alot better than I first joined. And its not just me. My whole dept all lunch in every single day. No life? yesh...no life. While my other hire mates lunch for at least 1 hr everyday, my lunch is always chop chop 20 mins. My face now are covered with rashes...but I cant take MC coz we are very short handed. I am the only main person doing my job. One person show. My backup on 2 wks leave. I cant afford to take MC. Sumtimes I thk, the only way to leave or take a break from this job, apart from holidays and wkend, is to really work till you die on your desk and be carry out of the office.

Is this the price to pay for the higher pay? Is it a better road? As of now, I say not much better, but i cant comment in the long run.

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