What Have I done to deserve all these. I am getting pretty f**king tired of going in circle. If I could chose I would all these to end now and right this second. I am not chicken, but I get tired. I am tired of trying to make you understand. Maybe all these are just meant to be. I touch my heart, I have done my part, fair and square. Maybe its nobody's fault. Maybe it is just a wrong mixture of chemicals and a totally poison cocktail. Its nobody's fault. Lets accept the fact and move on. I am tired of feeling gulity and tired of been pin pointed.
Is it wrong to let you know how and what I feel. If thats wrong, I dun wana talk about it anymore. I dun wana listen anymore. Coz in the end, I am that is at fault. I am sick of trying to opening up to you when you think that all I do is kicking up a fuse. I need someone to understand. I dun need answers and I dun need advise. I just need someone to listen to me. Spare me a ear and zip that mouth. If I am making you feel so bad, then just leave. Walk away, I dun care coz I cant give anymore.
If its my fault for expressing my thoughts and feeling. Fine, from now on I will burn off that mouth of mine. Dun tok to me, dun ask me why, coz I am not gona whisper a word. I will wana bottle myself up like a can of coke. And some day I hope I explode, to release myself out of all these.
For hating you, I blame myself. For holding onto fairytales and believing in tall tales. I hate myself for not being strong euff. I hate myself for catching myself and letting me fall thru where I am now. I shant have opened up to you in the first place. I should have ended all these when I have the chance. I hate myself for thinking of the positive, coz I am just painting a wonderful picture of what I thought it would be. I am tired of hating myself. I am tired of feeling gulity.
Walk away...Really...Just walk away...