Regrates..

My past is catching up to me...And I have no idea how to shake it off...Friends around me tell me that ex-boyfriends can still be friends...I dun believe in that...To me, its better to have a clear break...Not to have anything to do with each other...Better still dun even haf any contact or news about each other...Like vanish into thin air..I like that idea...That someone...I have been avoiding...After avoiding him for 3 years, turn out to be my brother's supervisor for his weekend job next week...I like almost fainted when I heard that...

Why does fate have it work of working back at us...Its like karma...I was young back then...Immature relationship...We did a lot of silly things and it was like a drama relationship...Worse, he cheated on me...Thats why I left him...After cheating on me so many times...Though it seems like he is now only connected with my brother as employer and employee...But I still dun like the idea that he is in my life somehow...How is he in my life? Coz he is in my brother's life...Not that I want my brother to quit his job...Thats isnt fair to him...But I do wish in some fact that fate wun play such a joke on me...I wish my brother's supervisor was someone else...

Then people ask...So how is he affecting me...Its just the idea that he is 'in' my life...He asked about me...Harmless? But I still want to remind unknown to him...I want to be like a puff of smoke and just disappear...It just suck to have to know that my family member know him...I did a lot of things that I am not proud of...I really dun want him to start telling tales about me...Building on my mistakes and making it into a tall tale...Just like when I broke up with him...He accussed me of cheating on him...Said that I let him down in the first place...

AAARRRRGGGHHHHHHH~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is fate so cruel....Am I the only one who run away from past...Friends that I confide in say that I am weird...Am I weird??? Am I???