> All by myself..

♥ PROFILE

Y U A N
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

♥ DESIRES

I love doggies.
I love green.
I'm dizty and sunny
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl.
And a beautiful one too.

♥ TAG

♥ Dar-link

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♥ CREDITS;

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~~Wednesday, September 28, 2005~~

11:15 PM

She says...

The weather is funi lately...
So is my mood...
It is toatlly blue and grey...
With no sun shine nor fluffy white clouds...
I duno wat I am actualli feeling inside...
It is not good thats for sure...
I want endless sun shine with occasional rain...
I want to paint my own colours....
I want to create wat I wana see and enjoy...
I wana change my life...

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, September 27, 2005~~

7:33 PM

She says...

I AM SO FCUKED UP SEEING YOUR BLODDY FACE...
I AM ULTRA SICK OF OWING YOU A LIVING...
I AM FCUKING ASHAME THAT YOUR BLOOD RUNS THRU MY BODY...
I AM FCUKED UP HAVING TO BOW TO YOU FOR EVERYTHING...
I AM A FREAKING ADULT...
NOT YOUR FCUKING DAUGHTER WHO U CAN PUSH ARD...
OR EVEN FCUK WITH...
YOU WANA FCUK...
GO FCUK YOUR CHINA SLUT...
WANA ME TO TEACH YOU ALIGNMENT OF MICROSOFT WORD WITHING 5 MINS..??
WHAT THE FCUK...
I TOOK BLOODLY 4 FOURS YRS AND STILL LEARNING...
AND YOU WANA ME TO TEACH YOU IN FIVE FREAKING MIN...
WHY NOT JUZ FCUK ME...
THAT IS FASTER....
WANA ME TO TEACH YOU PHOTOSHOP WITHIN 20MINS...
SUMTHING I AM STILL LEARNING AFTER 4 YRS...
FCUK YOU...
I RATHER GET FCUKED BY YOU...
YOU WANT THIS YOU WANT THAT...
AND I M TRYING MY BEST TO TEACH YOU WHILE I M FREAKING BUSY...
YET YOU STILL SAY I GIF YOU ATTITUDE...
FCUK...
YOU ARE THE BLOODY ONE THAT GAVE ME ATTITUDE FIRST...
SHOUTING AT MY FACE...
SAYING THAT I DUN GIF A DAMN ABT YOU...
FCUK YOU...
HOW CAN I POSSIBLE HEAR YOU CALLING ME WHILE I WAS IN THE KITCHEN WIF ALL THE FRYING NOISE AND ME MYSELF TOKING TO MY SISTER LOUDLY TEACHING HER HOW TO COLOUR...
IT IS JUZ BAD LUCK THAT I GOT THE HEARING PROBLEM FROM YOU....
YOU CANT HEAR WELL...
WELL GUESS WAT...
SO DO I...
IT WAS SO FCUKING NOISE...
HOW TO HEAR YOU...
AND WHEN I WENT OUT TO HELP YOU...
YOU SAY I GIF U ATTITUDE...
SAY I SIGH TOO MUCH...
SAY IF DUN WANA TEACH THEN DUN TEACH DUN NID TO SIGH...
WHAT THE FCUK...
CANT I SIGH...
I AM SO FED UP TRYING TO TEACH YOU...
AND I AM TRYING TO CONTROL MY ANGER...
HOW TO TEACH WHEN U CANT EXPLAIN WAT YOU WANT...
HOW TO TEACH YOU WHEN U KIP ON HOLDING ON TO THE MOUSE...
HOW TO TEACH YOU IN 5 MINS...
WHAT THE FCUK...
EVEN ROME WASNT BUILT IN A DAY...
I THK I BETTER GO FCUK MYSELF...
I HATE BEING ME...
FCUK FUCK FUCK...

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, September 20, 2005~~

11:58 PM

She says...

Had chocolate buffet today @ Orchard Hotel...
Still stuck wif the tots of the chocolates...
Yummie....
Sinful though....
But wun wana miss the fun wif my SIM friends...
Kinda of took it like a break off frm all the study times...
Especially since I am having a test in a few hours soon...
Lately having hard time to stay focus...
Shant go into details and repeat whining...
It is juz me...
No determination...
Back to the root of all problems...
Laziness...
And I juz realli have to cut off that root sum how...
Though failed so many times trying to do so...
I realli salute those ppl...
Who will stay on track and fight all the way till the end...
Attaining what they want once they set their mind on anything...
I realli wonder how they do that...?
It is a characteristic that is born or sumthing that cld be learn...?
I mean...
If some thing bad happened (TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD)...
How do someone still still move on...
Or even almost at once...
Picked up from where they left...
I realli duno...
I tried....
But I cant...
If is some thing wrong wif my inner self...
Where my bad side over throws my good side in the process of change...
Or is it juz impposible for me to do so...
As I am not born with it...
Determination...
Born with or learnt...?

I got to be strong now

~~Monday, September 19, 2005~~

12:19 AM

She says...

The engine is down...
Petrol is out...
And petrol price is juz too expensive to be refilled...
Totally out by now...
Dun really know why...
Juz kinda of blank out...
Fallen apart...
I need to do sumthing about it fast...

I got to be strong now

~~Wednesday, September 14, 2005~~

1:21 AM

She says...

I am sick
I am sick
I am sick
Excuses Excuses Excuses~!!!

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, September 06, 2005~~

2:12 AM

She says...

Looks are deceiving...
What was thought to be true...
What was thought to be...
Will one day crumple down...
Either revealing its true form...
Or juz an empty space of made belief...
Nthg last forever...
That is sumthing that everyone know...
But yet...
Deep down in a corner of our heart...
Despite knowing it might be a lie...
We wish that it hlds certain truth in it...
But to only disappoint ourself with own made up lies...
Deceiving ourselves...
Funi how things work...
We want to know the truth...
Seek the truth...
Yet...
Knowingly convicing ourselves of the impossiblities...
To know the truth or not to know the truth...

I got to be strong now