Lately...
SIM seem to have lotsa of graduation ceremony...
All dressed in robe and 'square hats'...
Makes me wonder when will it be my turn...
So many things I want in life...
So many things to learn in life...
Every step taken...
Will lead to another...
Like a chain reaction...
Handling uncertainties...
Uncertainties which comes after certainties...
Sumtimes it juz get tiring...
Like for today...
I left the hse in anger...
Was angry wif my whole family except my mummy...
"My dad" actualli made a big fuss about who gets to get the small pot of congee...
And make me look bad in front of my brother's friends...
He banging on the door...
Me:"What?"
Bang Bang...
Me:"What??!!"
He:"Your letter is outside,you want a not~!"
Damn the letter was out there since morning...
Me:"I am changing~~!!!!"
It is as if he wants me to open the dorr when I am half-naked...
He juz haf to let all my brother's friends know that I am changing...
I already feel so uncomfortable wif my brother's friends ard...
When ever I open the door n leave my rm...
I get stares frm my brother's friends...
And like thats not euff...
He juz want the whole world to know that I am changing...
He:"Are you gona eat the congee?"
Me:"No I am not eating."
He:"Are you eating a not~! If you dun, then I eat..~~!!"
He din sound nice...
He sound as if...
"Wei~!! Theres congee~~!! You eat a not~~!! Dun eat then forget it, I eat~!"
Shit lor...
As if you ever ask me before you have your own meal...
Pretend to be concern...
FCUK....
I juz hate him...
Me:"Eat lah eat lah...I am not eating....!!!"
I muz be kind to him...
Coz he dun know how to cook congee....
Not like me...
I know how to cook plain congee...
I have legs and hands...
If I realli hungry and theres no food at home...
I know how to cook or buy...
No like some bastard...
Sit at home and wait to be fed...
Then when I open the door to leave the hse...
He:"Going to work?"
Me:"No Sch..."
WTF....
Why the sudden change of attitude towards us...
Last time you dun even gif a damn where I go...
Muz becoz my brother's friends are here...
So muz act concern...
FCUK...
A few days back...
I work morning shift...
He saw me leaving hse at 6am...
He:"Wa...waking up so early to study..."
Me:"No...Going work..."
Not like some ppl...
When I finished my morning shift at 11am n got home...
He is still slping...
He has no sense of time management...
Always fcuking complain to my mummy that he is tired...
But fancy him always sleep in the morning...
Take afternoon nap...
Then onli to burn mid-nite oil at nite...
From 3am to 6am...
What kind of fcuking working hours is that...
And to thk that last time he scold us for burning mid-nite oil to study...
Totalli Fcuk Up...
I hate him...
He actualli haf the guts to tell my mum...
He:"Dun force me to go and work, I dun want..."
So wat now...
He wana live of us...
Bloodly piece of fcuking shit...
And my brother...
He juz dun gif a damn abt the family...
He calls all his friends over...
Turn the hse upside dwn...
Litter every where...
Hog up the onli common tv set...
Eat up all my hse food...
Choke up lotsa of eletricity bills...
Metters jumping thru out the nite like crazy...
Friends screaming n shout like in arcade...
WTF...
He realli cant be bothered...
Not even to clean up the mess...
The whole hse was dirty untidy and sticky...
FCUK...
Then my sister...
Another nut case...
Kip complaining that we dun gif her freedom...
Then yet small things like scoping her own food oso want my mum to scope for her...
Even got the guts to find boyfriend...
Yet no guts to go toilet alone...
WTF...
Complain here pain n there pain...
Yet want to carry all the heavy item during her camping trip...
Then injuried herself then onli to come home whinning...
FCUK...
You know u haf history of injuried leg n back...
Yet you want to do all the heavy stuff on your own...
Even be a smart alex and do them for others...
Then dun come home complaining....
All toks and no brains...
I was pissed...
Veri pissed indead...
I nid to leave the hse...
Bring my mummy along...
Orelse one day...
Both of us will go nuts....