Family...
Supposed to be the last people on Earth that would ever hurt you...
But I doubt so...
Maybe just for my case...
My dad....
Or is he still my dad...
Takes my mom for granted...
Slowing tearing the family up with his own hands...
Yet pointing fingers at others...
Saying we dun care about the family at all...
When the fact...
He is the one doing the major damages...
Yes...
We kids may not be sensible euff...
Maybe it is our fault for not growing up fast euff...
Old euff to understand the real world...
But that dun gif you the reason to fool ard outside...
Breaking our hearts...
Especially mom's...
And worst...
Keep pointing finger at others...
Still justifying that what you are going thru is for our future sake...
To me...
I used to take you seriously...
But now I think all those are just excueses...
I can no longer stand you taking me for granted...
Thinking that I am your daughter and would do anything for you...
You want me to help you in the company...
But you always pass me stuff like after 10pm...
And yet need it by tml...
It doesnt help when I also have another job outside...
Staying up late for you...
Waking up early to earn my own financial support...
It juz doesnt help...
And what happen to all my help...
You take the outcome and go fooling ard outside...
Why then do i need to help you...
To earn more so that you can go out and play...
Why should I help that slut...
Helping her to con you for more money...
Which you are so reluctant to give anything more to the family...
I hate my life now...
Since this sem...
I have not taken any break...
Stress and tired...
Thru before,during and after exams...
People having enjoyable break after all the hard work on exams...
But me...
Still working my butt off...
How I wish I am a rich ger...
With pently of money...
Dun haf to work...
Money to spend...
Time to enjoy...
Club and swing my life away...
Doing what I realli like...
Can you believe...
I havent bought ny new clothes for myself for a year...
I have to count my pennies before i spend on my meals...
Cant turn up for friends' outings...
Coz I dun haf euff to spend...
Even haircut I have to think twice..
Yet....
I am not saving much...
Coz all are juz enough to meet end needs...
I dun like my life now...
Though sometimes I comfort myself...
For the fact that there are people who are worse off than me...
For the fact that I have loving boyfriend,mom, sis, brother and friends...
But I am competitive...
Not that I am greedy..
But I think my family...
Especially my mom...
She deserve better...
She now suffer body pain from work...
And it just hurts me knowing...
But yet I cant ask her not to work...
I have anything to offer and provide for her...
To put bread and water on the table for her...
it just hurt me so much...
Mayb thats the reason why I am still striving...
Working...
Believing...
Coz I want to give her the best...