I dun like my life now...
Not that I am not gratefull...
But the changes that had happened in the family...
My dad juz call over a friend with his wife...
Greeting them at the door....
He said my mom went marketing...
Clearly a lie...
When my mom is out working...
Guess he is ashame of that...
To him...
A married woman must stay home to cook...
And serve after him...
Why is he such a bastard...
And when all the while...
My mom fulfill his stupid idea of being a wife cum maid...
He is out there screwing other girl of his daughter age...
The house is a mess...
Coz now without my mom...
No one clean n wash his dishes and tidy the rooms...
Yet he seem so proud of his dirty hse...
Only home to me coz I have got none other to call so...
Even I have to work...
To lighten the family load...
When he sits at home...
Dreaming his own kindgom...
Chasing his own rainbow...
After setting up his own company...
All he did was to suffer more and more losses...
Making us save and wun even let my brother buy his laptop which is required by his poly...
Saying that times are hard....
So we children muz be sensible...
However...
He himself...
Give money to his honey girlfriend cum misstress cum almost the same aged as me back in china...
Total sum given is enough to buy my brother 3 laptop...
WTF...
In the end...
My mom...
Who hasnt worked for the last 20 years...
Had to fork out her own life saving and pay for my brother's laptop...
Remember the times when my mom cook curry for all of us...
My dad would complain...
Coz he is the only one who cant take spicy food....
Yet now...
All the instant noodles he buys for himself are of curry and pepper favour...
My mom guessed its coz his bloody china girlfriend love spicy food...
Orelse why he brough over packets of curry fish head on his last trip to china....
I hate my life now...
All coz of one man...
Not that I am not giving him credits for giving life to me and all the good old days we had back then...
But that is not good enough reason to screw other girls outside...
This is so sickening...
He made the whole family crample and my mom going nuts...
My mom feel so inferior of herself in terms of looks and all things...
I wana bring my family outta this shit...
Bring my mom to somewhere she has no worries...
Give and provide for her what she really deserve...
But ther are times when I feel tired...
And I wish I could just die...
But...
Death dun solve anything...
Onli make things worse...
Coz then my mom need to work even longer before my brother can provide for her...
I hate my life...
But I still have to go on...
For the reason that I still love my mom...