> All by myself..

♥ PROFILE

Y U A N
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

♥ DESIRES

I love doggies.
I love green.
I'm dizty and sunny
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl.
And a beautiful one too.

♥ TAG

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~~Sunday, April 24, 2005~~

8:34 PM

1st paper is tml...
To me...

I feel that I already done wat I could to pass...

But I know sometimes luck play alot...

Followed the tips and hints given by lecturer...

Not that I am lazy...Or mayb I am...But reali no time...

And I badly need a pass...

I hope the hints and tips dun play me out tml...

Though I never like to wish ppl 'good luck'...

Coz to me...

It is like indirectly telling ppl that...

One hasnt done euff homework and juz haf to b lucky...

But now...

I beg to defer...

Mayb coz I am desperate...

I need luck...

I need to pass...
Badly...

I got to be strong now

~~Saturday, April 23, 2005~~

2:01 AM

I realli trying my veri best to stay focus...
I am realli trying...
I realli want to pass badly....
Juz a pass...

I dun want to retain and repeat all these...

Coz it will cost me time and money...

I badly want to pass...

Please give me the strength to carry on...

I am competitive...

I cannot stand being defeated...

I got to be strong now

~~Monday, April 18, 2005~~

2:50 AM

I am so tired...
All these load on me...
Drving to the edge...
But somehow...
I know I have to make it...
I have to move on...
No matter how tired I am...
I still have to go all the way...
If not...
I am gona suffer for a even longer period...
I need to go on...
I have to...
I dun have a choice...

I got to be strong now

~~Friday, April 15, 2005~~

8:40 PM

Dun tell me I dun care for the family...
When you are out there screwing other girl of my age...
Dun act as if you are great...
Coz now you are not the financial contributor of the family...

Dun think you care the most...
All you care is whether mum is home coz you are hungry for food...
Without mum you have no food...
No one to cook for you is your main concern...
The only reason why you dun like the idea of mum working...
COz if she work...
No one would cook for you...
Always reminding that we should not bother mum with small stuff we can do on our own...
Why then you cant juz cook your own meal or juz go and buy...
Selfish Asshole...
Dun think I dun care...
After all if it wasnt for YOU and your STUPID business plan...
I wun have choose business course in uni...
I wun have choose finance as my specialization...
I would have choose arts, architecture, or interior design...
Some thing I love and enjoy...
Not for something I did not choose years back after I got my 'o' level...
Thats the reason why I din go for 3 year JC...
Coz they onli offered me commence...
I hate you...

You lied to us...
Cheated all our feeling...
Especially to mum...
The amount of sacrifices that mum given up for the family...
Only to know that you are sleeping around with some china slut bitches...
I hate you...
I really do...
Never in the world I would ever forgive you...

I got to be strong now

~~Thursday, April 14, 2005~~

2:33 PM

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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)

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I got to be strong now

~~Sunday, April 10, 2005~~

9:44 PM

Had a quarrel...
Over some same old things...
I dun know why somethings just dun work out...
No matter how hard we try...
I am getting tired...
I think he is too...
My temper...
My nonsense...
Against his kindness and care...
I am the villian...
The witch of all evil...
With the prince charming of my dream...
Long said that good triumph over evil...
So when is this story gona to end...

We gave our words...
Of trying out this relationship again...
But sumtimes...
I doubt it make much difference...
I will never be good enough for him...
He is and always will be the angel in heaven...
Unreachable...
Untounchable...
My foolishness...
Pushing him further away from me...

Part of me...
Wanna set him free...
Back to where he belong...
Allowing him to embrace what God has in plan for him...
A good man like him...
Only desever another angel in his life...
Not me...
Not a demon...
Another part of me...
Wish I cld have him...
Forever in my life...

Maybe...
I wish...
I was an angel...
But even if I was...
I had fallen...
Fallen long time ago...

I deserve nothing like him...
He is too good to be true...
Time to set us free...

I got to be strong now

~~Friday, April 08, 2005~~

9:22 PM

To make a difference...
Start within me...
No more tears...
No more wailing n mourning...
The world has moved on...
I have to move on...
Time to wake up and shake my engine up...
People have disappointed me...
But I will not diappoint others who care about me...
Most importantly myself...
I have entered another stage of my life...
I am re-born...

I got to be strong now

~~Wednesday, April 06, 2005~~

11:46 PM

Never promise anyone anything...

If you know you are never gona fulfill it...

Something sometimes we ourselves does unknowingly...

But it juz really hurts...

When someone's promise which you held so close to your heart...

Never came true...

Promises....

Are meant to be broken...

How true...

I got to be strong now

4:22 PM

I cant realli stand working in group...

Mayb its juz me...

Or mayb I am getting petty...

Of things ppl do that irritates me...

Things I comment and do...

Ppl think that I m toking crap...

Indirectly saying I am stupid and dumb...

Yet in the end...

Uses my ideas...

So why did you use my ideas and 'prononuce' it as theirs...

Never in my life...

I was made to feel so stupid...

They make me feel stupid...

Treat me like invisible...

Like a glass...

But yet uses my 'smart' ideas...

I hate working in groups...

Mayb I am juz growing old...

I cant cling with ppl anymore...

I wana be a loner...

I want to stand out from the crowd...

I hate the current me...

I will work for the better...

To show the world the best of me...

I got to be strong now