> All by myself..

♥ PROFILE

Y U A N
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

♥ DESIRES

I love doggies.
I love green.
I'm dizty and sunny
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl.
And a beautiful one too.

♥ TAG

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~~Wednesday, March 30, 2005~~

3:11 PM

Is this for the better future that we might hold...?

I really dun know...

I am messed up...

Very stressed out...

Horribly confused...

But what is done could not be undone...

Look forward for a better tomorrow...

I got to be strong now

~~Monday, March 28, 2005~~

2:37 AM

Couldnt sleep...

Though I am damn freaking tired...

Too many things on my mind...

My school work, family, money, and my brother...

Mainly my brother...

Juz found out that a few days back he broke up wif his girlfriend..

Duno why it kinda of affected me...

It has nthg to do wif me...

But juz feel a sense of saddness...

Mayb coz the gerfriend juz lost her mother...

Mayb coz the gerfriend didnt do well in her 'o'...

Mayb coz my brother broke up with her w/o a gd reason....

I duno...

He broke up wif her coz the feeling wasnt there any more...

He told me that they had broke up before....

And the patching back....

Can never cover the scar...

He said she dumped him twice...

W/o a gd reason...

Leaving him so hurt....

And the hurt washed out the stability and trust in the r/s...

Sumthing that nthg cld patch up...

Then now he break up wif her...

Partially coz there is no feeling anymore...

Partially coz he is tired...

Partially coz he is still like another girl....

Another girl whom he didnt chose to be wif when he chosen his gerfriend...

But i find it so heartless...

To leav her now...

At the worst point of her life...

All she had done for him....

Although some have hurted him...

But then...

Love is not sympathy...

If he didnt leave her now...

Yet chose to deceive his feeling for her...

Is it then morally right...

But I duno why...

I juz dun feel it is right...

To leave her now...

Mayb coz I am a girl...

I put myself in her shoes..

And I kinda of understand her feeling inside...

How stable is a relationship....

I realli duno...

They both seemed fine n happy before....

But yet...

It didnt have a happy ending...

I feel insecured...

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, March 22, 2005~~

12:17 AM

I agree with JW...

That I shld be grateful for watever I have now...

Juz nided a space to throw out all my stuff...

Like wat I m going to do now...

Kekekeke...

Feeling so tired...

But I cant realli slp...

Or rather...

I am realli tired...

N wld juz knock out once I hit the bed...

But I dun know if I can...

Coz there is so many things to do...

Was working on the compilling n typing out of the details of one of my project MOR...

From 730pm to now....

1234am....

Damn tired...

But still have 2 other projects I nid to work on...

One of them is grp...

N we are having meeting tml afternoon...

So die die oso muz do my part...

Dun wana be a free surfer nor a slacker...

Dun wana rotten eggs thrown at me... :P

Then oso have individual MOR...

That one oso die die muz start later...

Coz due next monday...

NO TIME LIAO....

All these work deprive me of my social life...

Most of all...

Wrecking me mentally n phyically...

But I guess everyone is the same...

Everyone haf their own problems...

Tearing them up too...

Shld try to thk more positive...

Generate all my negative forms of anything into positive gearing force...

BUT first....

I realli HAVE to nap a while...

Cant think on a tired mind...

I got to be strong now

~~Friday, March 18, 2005~~

2:17 PM

Looking at the title above...

I dun know whether to luff or cry...

Juz handed in another project...

*found out got a few mistakes but cant be bothered anymore....

All these projects are driving my class nuts...

Practically choking on all the projects which required so much self reading...

The one i juz handed in...

Nid at least 9 books....
Everyday staying back in scho...

in the lab...

facing the stupid pc for the entire day....

haiz....

I hope all these hardwork will be worth it...
Still got 3 more projects...

One of them is individual assignment...

Been try to read my recommended text for the assignment...

BUT....

it is so dry...

And my brain isnt awake yet...

veri tired...

*mentally...

Nv in my life ever wrote so many essay or reports...

or projects....

Nid to get into gear for exams too...

*pray for my projects n exams...

I got to be strong now

~~Thursday, March 17, 2005~~

10:12 AM

Lately, I realised that I have several changes happening in me...

Getting irritated easily...
Getting more aggressive....
Getting tired easily...
Sleeping earlier than usual...
Get ting more competitive
Stress out easily...
Dun feel like toking too much...
Feel like going to my old habit.....
Break easily under pressure n stress...

Wat is happening to me...I dun know....Some of the changes...I juz dun like it....
*reflect *reflect....

I got to be strong now