> All by myself..

♥ PROFILE

Y U A N
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

♥ DESIRES

I love doggies.
I love green.
I'm dizty and sunny
I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm a girl.
And a beautiful one too.

♥ TAG

♥ Dar-link

Marc. Junwei. Vivian. Darren. JeN. EnEn. April. Jac. Jas. Cheryl. Samuel. Hui0. Raine. SummerTingz. Iceberg. AppleSweetGirl. Riko. Scottlyn.

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~~Thursday, February 24, 2005~~

12:56 PM

When you cant change what you cant change...
Change yourself to adapt to the unchangables...

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, February 22, 2005~~

11:28 PM

2 days more to my date due for my ER assignment...Unsure of my progress rite now...20%? 30%? 40%? 50%?...Will be a best sign right now if I have done like 50%...*cold luff... Anything...din have any mood now to read my gathered info...tired eyes...real tired...but still a lot of things to do...decided to type something online n see if I can get a bit mood to work..nid to work my butt off now...or i will haf to slog for the later half of my life...

Decided to add a few new section in my blog...(www.chihuahua25.blogspot.com)... Added a 'wishlist' section...oso a 'starwish'...abit different in both of them...'wishlist' is more like a wish...i can live without it kind...but 'starwish' is more like my own long term goal...something that i want to achieve...and wat i am working to...ok...i know it might sound lame...or like bit outter space thing...like i m siao..but i thk i m on the verge of losing it...LOLx...dun realli now wat i m typing...bear wif me...kekeke....

Been wearing my new specs for quite a while liao...but still not used to it..hafing the feeling that something is pressing on my nose...veri painful sometimes...coz like my skin being pressed off...haiz...but no choice..contact lens are juz too ex when they onli last like 2 years the max...oso the monthly maintance will suck me dry...haiz...

hmmm...still no mood...how how...haiz...but...i m so scare of failing...but why i cant juz force myself to study....

WAKE UP~~!!!!!!

I got to be strong now

1:39 PM

Busy days...Juz plain busy...Schedule is packing to all the way up my nose....and all these make time seems to pass so fast...so fast that I cant catch up...

I got to be strong now

~~Monday, February 14, 2005~~

5:57 AM

Marcus' Grandma passed away on the morning of the first day of chinese new year...
Marcus' Grand Aunt passed away on the morning of the forth day of chinese new year...
My brother's girlfriend's mother passed away on the early morning of Valentines' Day at ard 5.05am...
Why are all these happening?

My brother's girlfriend's (JL), mother fell dwn at home and was admitted to NUH Sunday (13 Feb 2005) morning...was in critial condition....bleeding at the back of the brain...but cant be operated on coz the area was too huge...only can wait for the blood to stop bleeding...and yet it was still bleeding at 430pm since morning...14 Feb 2005, 12am ++...was told that her condition was stable....14 Feb 2005, 505am...received a sms frm my brother from NUH...telling me that JL's mother had passed away...

I am realli still in shock...It takes onli a fall...that everyone had in life...to take a life away...after so much struggling...I am thinking that JL's mother muz have realli tried her veri best to recover...knowing that the family needs her...the kids need her...it muz be realli veri veri serious and painful that she cant fight it any more...Almost similiar to my uncle's case when he passed away 2 years back...he fell and hit his forehead on the wash hand basin after a heart attack at home toilet...yet no one notice it till it was too late even though there were ppl home...I guess u nv know when its ur time to go...and when it is ur time...there is nthg u can do...

My brother is still in hospital...It will be tough for JL's family...especially her younger brother I guess...Coz he is like 14++ and dun like to study...At least JL's elder sis of my age, has a job and JL herself going to get her 'O' Level result...But her brother...*sign...Then her family seems to haf some problem...duno wat is it exactly...JL and my brother still waiting for 'O' Level result...I hope she do well...I hope JL pull thru this...Though I nt veri close to her..but I hope for the best for her in the future...Hope she take this as a test in life and pull thru it...Take it as a test to bind the family together and do herself and her mother proud in the future...It is a high priced test...But she has no choice and has to pull thru it....

I got to be strong now

~~Tuesday, February 08, 2005~~

11:52 AM

I HATE YOU...
YOU CAME IN OUR LIFE...
WRECKING MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN...
BUT WAT CAN I DO?
MAYB I SHLD APPLAUD TO YOUR COURAGE AND SUCCESS...
FOR BEING SO SMART TO COME UP WITH THIS PLAN...
FOR HITTING THE GOLDMINE....
MAYB I SHLD APPLAUD TO YOUR SMARTNESS...
AND LEARN FROM YOU...
SLUT...
I HATE YOU...
BUT I AM GONA TRAMPLE OVER YOU...
MAKE SURE ALL YOUR FELLOW COUNTRY MATES AND MAKE THEM MY SLAVE ONE DAY...
I AM GONA MAKE THAT MY GOAL IN LIFE...
MAKE YOU ALL MY SLAVE...
AND NO I AM NOT ONE OF YOU.....
EVEN THOUGH I AM A CHINESE...
I AM ASHAME OF MY ROOTS...
HOW YOU GIRLS ARE OUT TO SLEEP FOR MONEY...
I CANT BELIEVE I AM A CHINESE...
COZ WE ARE SO DIFFERENT...
I HATE YOU...
I WISH YOU BURN IN HELL..
BUT I THINK I NEED NOT WORRY ABOUT THAT..
FOR YOU ALL MIGHT ALREADY BE SOULESS BY NOW...
RIPPED FROM YOUR BODY...
SINCE THE MOMENT YOU ARE BORN TO THIS EARTH...
YOU ALL ARE OF THE LOWEST CREATURES ON EARTH...
YOU ARE CREATED AS A SHOOTING TARGET FOR US...
HOWEVER I KNOW THAT...
ONE DAY YOU ALL WILL RAISE ABOVE THE REST WHO DESPITE YOU...
COZ YOU ALL HAVE THE CAPABILITIES TO TRAMPLE US IN THE END..
BUT I GONA MAKE SURE IT NEVER HAPPEN...
I AM GONA WORK MY BUTT OFF...
I AM GONA BE FRIENDS WITH YOU ALL..
I AM GONA UNDERSTAND YOU ALL...
I AM GONA THEN BACKSTAB ALL OF YOU...
I GONA MAKE YOU MY SLAVES...

I HATE YOU...
BUT I AM GONA TRY TO BE CLOSE WITH YOU...
I AM GONA END YOUR LIFE IN YOUR WAY...
COZ I WILL LEARN FROM YOU...
AND KILL YOU LIKE THE WAY YOU ARE TEARING ME APART...
TEARING MY FAMILY APART...
I HATE YOU...

I got to be strong now

~~Monday, February 07, 2005~~

10:11 AM

Life...
Is so long...Yet seems so short at times...Never know wats gona happen tml...
Fate sometimes juz love to play trick at us sometimes...Setting our hopes up but yet let us down in the end...
Life...
Life...

Sick n tired of it sometimes...
But still...Have to go on...
Magical and Torturing...

I got to be strong now

~~Saturday, February 05, 2005~~

11:16 AM

You like the prince charming type.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse

which happy bunny are you?
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I got to be strong now

~~Thursday, February 03, 2005~~

11:28 PM

Chamomile Tea...You are Chamomile Tea.Your an original! Helpful to anyone in need and
always willing to lend a hand, you take action
but not through violence, people listen to you
for you have a knack for giving wonderful
advice! Many look up to you and you try your
best not to let them down. You have many
friends steadfast or no who consider themselves
lucky to be near you. You may have been hurt in
the past but you dont let that stand in your
way! You have a wonderful outlook on life and
try to see the good in people which is an
awesome gift!

What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
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I got to be strong now

~~Wednesday, February 02, 2005~~

4:44 AM

Cant sleep....Many thing on my mind...Woken up by my dog...a bit aimless...a bit lost...need to find my way up...out of here...out of this lost world...

I got to be strong now